Lauryn Hill’s daughter Selah Marley has opened up about the ‘trauma’ she has had to deal with due to her childhood. In a two-hour Instagram Live, the 20-year-old spoke candidly about growing up with her famous mother, and how having an absent father had affected her relationships. She admitted: ‘Honestly guys, I’m just hurting. I can’t even front that I’m not. ‘I’ve been hurting for so much of my life and so much of my life has been me avoiding how much I’m really hurting just from the circumstances.’ Selah – who is the daughter of Lauryn and Bob Marley’s son Rohan Marley – claimed she would google what it was like to have a father because her own dad was so absent.
She explained: ‘I came to the conclusion of how much of my life I’ve f**ked up and how much of me is f**ked up simply because my dad just wasn’t around. And there’s just a void where there should be a person. And it’s honestly really hard.
‘Like it’s so hard day in and day out. And I feel like this is common in the Black community–not even that I just feel like the things I’ve done because of the trauma, like the deep trauma.’ While she also spoke frankly about her mother’s discipline style as she admitted that though her mother was an ‘amazing woman’, she did get ‘very angry’.
Selah stated: ‘She would spank us to no avail. She was just very angry. So, so, so, so, so, so angry. ‘She was literally not easy to talk to and then half the time we didn’t live with her. I lived with my grandparents half the time… It’s crazy, I’m playing this trauma back in my head as I speak to you.’
Selah said Lauryn would tell her to go get the belt and it felt like walking to your death. She added: ‘You walk to go get the belt, the switch, this that. And my mother is an amazing woman, but she obviously didn’t do everything right.’ And she then admitted she was still ‘traumatized’ by the sound of the belt hitting as she continued: ‘And then the threats, the constant threats… That belt, man. That’s that slave s**t. ‘That was some slavery s**t. All Black parents were on that s**t.’
Selah said Lauryn was angry because she was being attacked by the media, going through her own shit and raising 5 kids with a man who didn’t really know her. And so she explained that her childhood was without peace because there was constant family issues going on. In turn she feels she may have even developed a possible split personality disorder and has unhealthy relationships because of her father’s absence.
Selah – who has four other siblings – added that she has been to therapy ‘a million times’ but has some issues with the therapeutic process.
Following her Instagram video, Selah tried to make the aim of her conversation clear as she posted: ‘jesus christ. The discussion that I had was a larger conversation about a certain trauma that I experienced from a lack of unity in the houself. This is nothing new.
‘This is commonplace for many people & I’m glad so many of you were about to resonate with the healing that I speak of. But please do not go bashing my parents right now—especially my father.’ She continued: ‘I never said I did not love him. I said that their shortcomings created trauma that I now need to consciously and actively heal from.’